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 on: August 23, 2016, 08:04:09 PM 
Started by Nymree - Last post by marisol
Nymree sounds like you are on your way to finding your path. All will be revealed in time.


Blessings

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 on: August 22, 2016, 12:20:31 AM 
Started by Nymree - Last post by Nymree
My experience would suggest, though, that the deity is the Earth Mother.

Thanks Alchymist, what your saying does make sense of things and has given me a bit of clarity in all the chaos. Sorry, I didn't notice you're comment until after I wrote that last wall of text.

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 on: August 21, 2016, 10:34:21 PM 
Started by Nymree - Last post by Nymree
The problem is, I'm not entirely sure who my goddess is. For a while now, I've been wary of actively trying to seek out specific deity, even though I long for that kind of relationship, because of previous unfruitful (not negative, but not really positive) experiences with deities. So far, I've gotten the impression that, however They are, they will reveal their identity to me when the time comes. I've always felt drawn to Mother Nature, and started my path worshiping Gaia, but now have begun to feel more like the general name Mother Earth would fit my own experience better. To be specific, the original location of the walk was an old hill that is a sacred space to me, where I often go to find some peace. I was also dealing with letting go of a god figure in my life, but was also moving into a more intimate relationship with goddess, something that I now realize was maybe inevitable and only being delayed by my struggles with male deity.

The faces I saw were difficult to identify, but the first was clearly a woman's. The others were less striking of distinct, ranging from ages and possibly even gender. I did invite the deity into my dreams, actually, but unfortunately I didn't sleep well that night (not unusual for me and influenced by external unforeseen factors) and when I did dream it came in snippets that were faded (but linked with a recent reading I did on the matter.)

When I heard the voice, it was in my head, not at all external. I was actively engaging with my environment, in that I was being absorbed in the view and wondering if that was deity (or goddess) to me. I did think it was just my imagination, but when I heard it the second time in meditation it was joyful and light, almost excited (and, I'll admit, a little creepy; it is a bit much to go from expecting rejection to being declared "mine" in such a short time.)

I did wonder for a time if it was some playful spirit following me home from the hill (it is an ancient site) and sensing my turmoil and disruption in my path, having a bit of fun with me. After reading Marisol's take on it, though, I'm a little more trusting of whoever it may be.

I think I tend to expect negativity recently from deity, but this may be of my own fault. For context, I am a very compassionate and loving person (that was really not meant to sound so narcissistic) and on some level I care about everything and everyone. This has, however, made it difficult to deal with rejection at times, when I've tried and failed for one reason or another to develop relationship with deity. A key theme in my recent tarot readings has been "forgiveness", and I'm starting to think that I need to let that expectation of rejection go or else I'll only experience what I expect. Even so, it's difficult to un-train myself.

Now that I've got this spin on the matter, though, I'm actually doing a lot better. I'm starting to look at what I want out of this whole path and relationship, rather than being (maybe overly) tentative to the desires of deity. I mean, I am listening to the deity in my life, but I'm also starting to consider my own needs as well. I'm also experiencing a much more positive relationship with this being, whoever they are, despite my immediate surprise and wariness of them.

Honestly, I'm a bit relieved. It's been so long since I felt this kind of connection with deity, and although I'm still very hesitant to guess at their identity (which can be a pain at times, but I'm working with it) I'm just happy that they're there. I'm still a bit wary of them - my immediate reaction is always distrust, but in terms of my spirituality I get the sense that this isn't the best way to set a tone for all my relationships - but they've been incredibly supportive of me and I'm beginning to feel like I can trust them at least a little bit. For a long time I felt there was something there, now I suppose I might be more directly engaging with that? Possibly, but honestly it's been such a winding road to get to this point that I'm happy to accept things for what they are and roll with it.

Sorry, this turned into a thought-splurge since I didn't have anything nearby to write my thoughts down on. I'm a solitary, too, so I get very little opportunity to air my thoughts like this to others, either. Hope that all made sense, sorry for the occasional vagueness.

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 on: August 21, 2016, 10:09:25 PM 
Started by Nymree - Last post by Alchymist
It is a great honour to be chosen by a Goddess; but with the honour comes an awesome responsibility. To be chosen by the Earth Goddess means to be a Witch and a Warrior in defence of the Earth from those who would profane and pollute her..... How you go about dealing with the responsibility is up to you; perhaps, if you listen carefully, She might suggest something for you to do. It may be something as simple as recycling, or going out one day and clearing the debris and garbage from a local creek - or something as vast and complex as studying ecology at University and becoming a campaigner for the Earth like David Suzuki or Rachel Carson...... but the choice, ultimately, is yours alone.

Blessed Be, and may the Goddess guide you.

ALchymist.

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 on: August 21, 2016, 02:27:52 PM 
Started by Nymree - Last post by oldghost
Who is your Goddess ?.Can you tell us what she said and the faces you saw who's faces were they ?. What Marisol said is true to each in their own way .

See if she comes to you in your dreams , do you have your dream journal handy ?. Always be careful when something new happens . Write down all that you remember from your walk. Did you stop at a certain spot, sit by a new tree , hear what could have been the wind ?.

If you were not having negative feelings then you shouldn't have attracted any negative energy to yourself .

Be happy that she came to you so early in your searching for her .

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 on: August 21, 2016, 03:01:50 AM 
Started by Nymree - Last post by Nymree
Thanks Marisol, that does make sense upon reflection :)

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 on: August 20, 2016, 06:43:50 PM 
Started by Nymree - Last post by marisol
Nymree all of us experience deity/or not in individual ways. It may be the Mother is just reassuring you that you are hers, after all is that not what you wanted, to know her better and learn her ways. It sounds as though it was a way of saying she excepts you, that you matter and she is there when you call.

I can understand your feelings, but you didn't invite anything negative into your life. You were dedicating yourself to the Mother, the goddess you chose. She is not a negative deity, or a demon. Your thought was "mine" and she replied "You're mine". It doesn't mean you did anything wrong.
Some experiences are so sudden that they leave us a little shaken. You will be fine.

Blessings

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 on: August 20, 2016, 08:07:30 AM 
Started by Nymree - Last post by Nymree
Today, for the first time, I felt like I was somehow unofficially dedicating myself to Mother Earth. I had a thought pop up; "mine", and assumed it to be my own brain throwing weird and random thoughts at me. It was during a spiritual walk and communion with nature, and when I got home I made an offering. I entered meditation after, really quite easily,even thought I had been struggling this morning, and suddenly a strange sensation washed over me. In my mind's eye, I saw the goddess actually enter my body, and I had several strange sensations wash over me like hot flushes and light-headedness. My arms felt like they were floating, or at least they felt very light. I heard her say several things, greeting me by my name and saying to me "you're mine". I also saw several faces flash up inside my eyelids. Now, before this I have considered deity to be within all of us, and I once accepted a very soft-polytheistic view of nature deity, so this could impact things.

My main question is: is this bad? I know it may just be something to do with subconscious and psychology, and I accept that this could easily be my imagination. It was just a very convincing experience, and I haven't a lot of knowledge in this area - the only advice I ever received was "don't get into witchcraft, or you'll get demons". (I do not have this opinion and mean no offence by repeating it, it's just to clarify my paranoia in the area of strange and unfamiliar experiences.)

Now, I'm slightly paranoid, and I don't want to invite anything negative or manipulative into my life. I'm happy to dedicate myself to the goddess, but I still don't know if I should be paranoid about all of this. "You're mine" is very powerful and slightly discomforting, after all, but then I can't expect deity to work by the perspective of humanity?

Sorry this may sound jumbled - this has only just happened, still feeling a little weird and really funky. Difficult to describe.

Thanks to any and all replies made!

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 on: August 09, 2016, 06:15:42 AM 
Started by Nymree - Last post by Mystik Witch
I was a small boy when I started walking the woods and streams around our house.  My parents were non-demonimational Christians.  I was raised to believe in G-d, but it was only in the wild places that I truly experienced a very close proximity to it.  G-d to me, was always much more than the Christian concept; as a philosophical Christian witch(don't put me in a box); the Christian part is commonly misunderstood.  I don't practice any Christian religion; I merely recognize Jesus of Nazareth as a rebel Rabbi and possibly as a prophet; I'm non Biblical, in that I recognize all gospels of Christianity, even apocryphal(in the Catholic Bible and elsewhere). I also practice the doctrine of reciprocity.  I've never been Wiccan. 

I felt it was more important to build my own belief system based on my life experience and core beliefs rather than try to put them all into an ill-fitting box.  I've been very happy, and don't care much about the approval of others.  I don't talk about it unless asked; when asked I tell the total truth... never been much for closets.. LOL

I like your thinking!!!! I to was raised in a very structured Christian belief religion. It never sat well with me. Since I finally decided to stop trying to conform to their way of thinking. I have become very happy in what I do believe in. I know there are higher powers out there. Exactly who they are is hard to pin point. I was taught there was the G-D head (3 spirits). Can't stick with that. There are many more then just three to my way of thinking. I find it very interesting to study them, their ways, and beliefs. Don't think I will ever find out all I want to know before this life is over. BB! MW

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 on: August 06, 2016, 09:06:21 AM 
Started by Nymree - Last post by Firesong
I was a small boy when I started walking the woods and streams around our house.  My parents were non-demonimational Christians.  I was raised to believe in G-d, but it was only in the wild places that I truly experienced a very close proximity to it.  G-d to me, was always much more than the Christian concept; as a philosophical Christian witch(don't put me in a box); the Christian part is commonly misunderstood.  I don't practice any Christian religion; I merely recognize Jesus of Nazareth as a rebel Rabbi and possibly as a prophet; I'm non Biblical, in that I recognize all gospels of Christianity, even apocryphal(in the Catholic Bible and elsewhere). I also practice the doctrine of reciprocity.  I've never been Wiccan. 

I felt it was more important to build my own belief system based on my life experience and core beliefs rather than try to put them all into an ill-fitting box.  I've been very happy, and don't care much about the approval of others.  I don't talk about it unless asked; when asked I tell the total truth... never been much for closets.. LOL



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