In a way those that are drawn to any kind of Magic appear to have a internal compass that points to the energy of Magic and like a magnet it pulls us in the direction we need to go to get stronger . Some only feel the pull a little and some feel it much stronger . It's with one all the time we just have to want to find that source of the pull .
Thank you for your insight. The word 'pull' was one I remember hearing in some of the sermons by the late William Marion Branham. I suspect that most great callings are accompanied with a strong compulsion that this is good, right and positive and one aught to avoid those which generate fear in one.
As you say, bdj and og, the "pull" is very real; but in my experience it was more than that. It was as if the Magical Path reached out and grabbed me almost before I knew it, and certainly before I felt "ready". It was scarcely a conscious choice, in some ways; it was simply something I had to do.
I was, it seemed, dragged through a series of experiences by some unseen hand, which left me no choice but to follow the Path that I'm on.
It's the same with art, or indeed science or invention. All the truly great artists paint, carve, dance or write music because it is what they have to do; some inner compulsion drives them, and won't be denied. Scientists like Newton, Darwin or Einstein, inventors like Tesla, follow their respective Paths, again, because some inner compulsion drives them, to the point of singlemindedness, forgetting to eat or sleep, wild eccentricities or, in some cases, what the world calls madness. Madness it might be, but it is a divine madness, approaching a kind of satori or ecstasy.
So follow the Path that chooses you, through love and joy, adventure and terror, mirth and reverence. There's precious little money in it, for most of us; if money's your thing, become a bond trader or a Corporate lawyer and leave magic, art and science alone. Ignore that hollow place inside, and try to deny what you know, deep down; that that which you deny will eventually destroy you.
Blessed Be, to all who follow your own Path, wherever it may lead.