I apologize if this is posted twice. Computer had a glitch!
I couldn't have said it any better. After reading this post from top to bottom. I have to agree with you both og and Alchymist. Each of you have said exactly how I feel about my path. I just never felt like I belonged with my family's beliefs and their religion. I felt like I was on the outside looking in. I was always reading something that was to do with witchcraft or energy. ( I had to hide it or my mother would ground me and lecture me on the devil). Sundays were very hard for me to deal with. I dreaded Sundays. I finally refused to go with my family to their church. I would rather stay home and have be forced to clean the house then go to church and deal with that. It just wasn't right. The more I study about my path of being a witch. The easier it is becoming for me to understand why I have been drawn here from my earliest childhood years.
Everyone says its like coming home. In many ways, yes, it is. That warm feeling in the pit of your stomach. The calm that comes over you when you ground and center. The knowledge that the deities are with you, (what ever deities you believe in).
"In a way those that are drawn to any kind of Magic appear to have a internal compass that points to the energy of Magic and like a magnet it pulls us in the direction we need to go to get stronger. Some only feel the pull a little and some feel it much stronger. It's with one all the time, we just have to want to find that source of the pull." quoted from og
But most of all just being content knowing what I am studying and learning, somehow some where, I have learned it all once before. Finding my path and what is new to learn each day is a tremendous gift to me.
As Alchymist said, "You know you're a witch when you know you're not anything else."
Fortunately for me, I was left to my own and only taken to Sunday Skull until I didn't like it. (that didn't take too long)
I naturally moved towards free-thinking and embraced a Bohemian lifestyle so was very easily able to open up just about anything which I felt strongly enough was good, pure and true.
Unfortunately drugs and Philosophy got in the way of that and before I knew it I was getting to damn close to stuff which I can only describe as 'evil' -- though at the time, I just thought it was a 'pull' -- it was but the very wrong sort of 'pull'
I ended up getting sweet into a vortex of emotionalism and before I knew it I was riding the roller-coaster of happy-sad-happy-sad until eventually I became disenchanted (much Sunday Skull) and drifted away eventually finding my way little-by-little into a state that I think is beautifully described in the U2 song "I Still Haven't Found What I'm Looking For" -- it's great to be open and honest and follow the 'pull' of 'One Love' -- so many great leaders have shared this insight - - Bob Marley was really an amazing force of Nature who has continued to spirit me up!
I love reading Sri Caitananya's 8 verses (new to me) and also enjoy the romantic story of Krsna and Radha -- so beautiful -- the union of love and lover -- magical
As to spells, I've only tried once and felt a little like I was imitating one those B-Grade witch movies and laughed it off - I guess I have a bad taste in my mouth for any form or repetition -- including "Hare Krsna, ...." -- I just like the idea of the 'pull' but more so the essential nature of being a witch and that is to be a 'seeker'