Oh darn.. I ended up with another novel..
A lot of the bad luck I left out had to do with my exhusband and contingencies forced by the divorce decree. I'm curious though, if my boyfriend and I were married and I used the word husband instead, would you still have the same opinion? My ex husband abused me, mistreated me, and I didn't realize it. Because of it I constantly check an abuse site
to make sure I'm not in that situation again. A better link to describe my significant other would be the love languages
. And there are days he'll do one or two, and there are days he does all five. (while trying to describe what he does for me, I remembered the love languages and realized he does them all, often daily.)
Something that could be considered as my boyfriends fault is my staying to help his dad. Taking care of him actually used to be my job. I am one of three people (two now) who know how he is, how he gets, and what to do when certain things happen. I was also the only one who knew his meds since his wife passed. His health is very complicated. My boyfriend was only gone when he was working, other wise he was helping me and I was free to use the car. Another bad choice of mine was not using the car to take classes for the GED which I think I could have done had I actually found the classes. I stopped looking when I realized how sick she was. My personal goals in life felt less important.
No one planned for her to get cancer which is honestly the kick that started the ball rolling in some of the worst bad luck. I miss her dearly. I still talk to her as if she's still here, sometimes she is.. sometimes I can smell her brand of smoke and hear her nudge me. I've created a little shrine for her in the shape of her music box.. I filled it with (what feels to me as) some of her most precious-to-her trinkets.. She was 64.
The divorce can be blamed on my ex husbands new girlfriend, my parents moved so far away because dad got a new job and didn't think I'd need to live with them again, car problems can either be luck or karma, loss of job because the car (and I could have asked my boyfriend to take me, but I didn't..) the choices I made about the car were stupid and that was my choice, The purse and phone I blame luck or karma (I found some money in a parking lot and didn't try to return it hence the karma), and the ex girlfriend who called the police? I guess I could blame my significant other since she is his ex, but he's in the same boat as I am. They have a kid together. At least she pretends to be nice, my ex just tried to accuse me of child neglect based on the opinion of a "drugged out waitress" in a restaurant.
Another reason I felt hexed (just now remembered) every time I walked out of the deceased house I felt a wave of bad luck. I am a certain flavor of clumsy, but it became more and more pronounced each time I left the house. I would like to shoutout the nosy neighbor who would have gladly been a grave robber.. But considering I was moving the belongings of my deceased friend, I could also suggest her spirit was unhappy about the situation, and she let herself be known. (either way, I felt the eyes of the nosy neighbor)
In my first message, I guess I didn't make my questions very pronounced. I was wondering if some of the bad luck could be because the frozen spell melted? (the electricity shut off, I grabbed food first.) Also, is there a stone or gem that anyone knows to aid in protection, or a level foot on luck? (I have several gems already and I was hoping someone would suggest one I already have) I did do a search for shielding but it is often pared with grounding and I haven't found what I'm looking for, so any advice on that would be greatly appreciated.