Draco,
I certainly understand your sentiment. the wanting that closeness we feel on line to come together in a physical meeting.
i would extend the invitation that if anyone is in central new york, i would love to meet for a drink or coffee...
sometimes... ahhhh crap. i don't know which words best fit.
Ah! that must have sounded desperate, oops....
In fact it was a case of; it would be nice to be able to meet and shake a few hands of the people I've been "hanging" with, I've grown quite fond of some of the folks here, and that very seldom happens with me.
this feels like the healthy dysfunctional family that i wish i had, growing up. not one person in my family really understood me. my one uncle does, at least half of me. he saved me this past spring. and my blood sister is beginning to understand.
but there really aren't many people who get all the stuff we talk about. even if we do not agree.
when fp and i split, we remained friends, best friends, even though we were so angry with each other. that's kind of how this place feels, in my head. no matter how hard it gets at times, there will be a re-seaming, a reconnection. even those of us who disappeared for several years.
Family closeness is not something I've ever really experienced, when I said I was a loner it wasn't just friends wise. I brought myself up from a very young age. My brother (adopted) is 13 years my senior moved away when I was three and I never saw him. My mother worked nights at the hospital, slept all day, so I never saw her. My dad, was there some of the time, until they both divorced, but he moved away to another place on the opposite side of the country. So no dysfunction there, in fact no function at all.
I look back and kind of regret not having had a brother there to interact with, or fight with sometimes. but thats in the past now.
i appreciate the different points of view. they are not toxic enough to cause harm, yet firm enough to allow us to bounce our ideals off each other and reflect back what we really feel or believe. i don't need to sit here and really explain the feelings i had when i went through my childhood box of memories and found a drawing i made of trees and flowers with rainbows around each and every plant. or why when i feel unsolid and unstructured, i know that there are things i can do to help resolidify.
Having these discussions and different points of view has really helped my own advancement, certainly opened my eyes wider. It gives an insight into other peoples views on things. It's just a shame other religions wouldn't do the same, they might get a better understanding of our Pagan beliefs.
I must say, some of the more "heated" discussions can be a little amusing, like seeing two brothers bickering
At times I even look forward to the next part of the post to see what comes next
(draco)
thanks for having the courage to speak.
Not so much a problem anymore. Quite a while ago, I made a concious effort to empty the cupboard of all the skeletons, sweep out all the other debris and so on. That way they can't come back to haunt me in the future. If I don't tell somebody something, then there is a reason for it, and nothing to do with dishonesty or deception. I try not to complicate my own life anymore.
I see from your post, you've had some things you've had to deal with too, so I thank you also for lending me your ear. much appreciated
