Welcome to TCC Nymree.
You've found a good place to investigate your beliefs, and what your feeling is perfectly normal. No one knows what it's all about when they begin along their path, but it all comes to you with time, study, and a lot of patience. One thing you must understand first though is, this is no cake walk, but the rewards of the knowledge you gain is worth it all; it's also very enjoyable.
What your path will eventually be will also come to you in time, for now simply calling yourself Pagan is good if you feel you need to label.
In the meantime, enjoy your time with us.